Bakerella

There is this website bakerella.com and I am officially obsessed. If i had unlimited baking supplies and free time I would probably bake all day long(and weigh 400 lbs, but heyyy, oh well. haha). I've made the cake pops a couple times now, and honestly the first attempt wasnt horrible, but the next time was better. Cake pops are crumbled cake mixed with frosting,rolled into balls and dipped in chocolate.These were the first(below) we made them for easter,hence the lil chick faces and body.And they're delicious.

I find myself clicking all the links to things she used to make the different confections and adding them to my amazon account and putting as save for later. Because seriously, when you have a 2 month old baby, you cant afford time or money to waste on baking supplies. But there are the sprinkles,candy molds,baking cups, squeezie bottles,fondant, edible markers,cute gift boxes and the list goes on and on. I'm planning Birthday presents for my sister( cheescake balls) and my niece( a really cool fondant mini cake) and making chocolates/desserts for the holidays in the eminent future for the rest of forever. I want to try it all, and be really good at it, I'd say I'm passionate about baking now. Its a strange passion, one of which requires time I do not usually have. One day...maybe...my passions are set aside for the time being though and I dont usually bake when i want to, mostly because I dont have the supplies. Until I find the time to be selfish I indulge in Bakerella,plotting to one day make it all.

He's Finally Here!

It's been almost 2 weeks, i figured it was time to announce the new member of our little family up here now. Kaleb Jethro Nay was born on March 2 at 1:34 pm. He weighed 6 lbs 9 oz and was 19.5 inches long. He's absolutely perfect, and a very happy calm little boy. It's so fun to have him here with us. There really is nothing like waking up to your own baby, even though you dont sleep much, its still amazing. i wouldnt trade my life for anything.

10 Days!

As the end draws closer, I'm anxious, exicted, and really just want this baby out! And 10 days is a nice even number, soo, blog time. I realize that once I have our little baby, life will by no means be easier, but I am really looking forward to having my body back. This is why:
-No more peeing every hour like clock work at night.
-No more not being able to shave my legs right, its reallly difficult to shave when you cant see what youre doing.
-I can bend over again!
-No more worrying about if anything I'm doing will hurt the baby
-No more getting sick from eating too much, or too fast.
-No more bowling ball belly
-I get to wear my wedding rings again!
-I can sleep on my stomach
I could go on, but you get the point. I'm excited, I wish things would go faster. I wonder if I'll even be able to tell when I'm going into labor. And i just hope its sooner rather than later, if he decided to get here this week, I would be completely ok with that. And so would PJ, he's dying to meet this little guy.

Cant Sleep

So. It's 5:02 am here.and I am WIDE awake,like i could get up and start my day already. I never,EVER wake up this early.EVER. So why am I up? Well it could have something to do with the fact that I have had to pee every 45 minutes, like clock work. Or maybe its the cat purring in my EAR! Or it could be the little baby inside who, for some crazy reason decided to wake up and wiggle and kick allll over me. No matter the reason, I am very awake. And, this is the best part, you'll never guess where I'm blogging from. The Bathtub. And is it filled with water? Nope. It's lined with towels, and I'm laying down in it. I know what you're thinking, this is some crazy pregnant thing right?? Well, you'd be very wrong. I've done this for as long as I can remember, just not since I've been married. It would be hilarious if PJ woke up about now to find me blogging in the tub.Everytime I was scared when I was younger, I'd line the tub with towels and sleep in the tub, or next to it. Until I moved downstairs and there was a shower, then I would just sit by the shower door until i didnt feel weird anymore. I dont know why, but the funniest part is my Mom AND my older Sister do/did the same thing! We are just crazy I guess. So this is my failed attempt to sleep, going back to where i could always fall asleep. Old habits die hard I suppose. Not to mention the oh so convienient access to the toilet, which I am apparently stuck to tonight. Can this pregnancy thing please be over now?

Difficulties

I swear, all I blog about is my pregnancy now. For that I apologize, the fact is, i just don't have anything else really going on, and it kind of consumes your life. There are those women out there who really just loooove being pregnant. I am NOT one of them. Don't get me wrong, it's miraculous, and amazing when he moves around, I love knowing there's a baby in there. But, being pregnant tears your body apart, and I just dont understand how you could love that part. I am used to being very independent, and now i cant do a lot of things. I cant bend over normally anymore, cant lift heavy things, cant do more than a few chores without needing a nap...cant sneeze without having to pee, cant stand up for more than 2 hours without my feet swelling up, etc etc. I feel like the living dead half of the time, and i still work almost 30 hours a week. And, to top it all off, i still dont look as pregnant as i should. For those of you out there who have not been pregnant, this is NOT a blessing, despite what everyone seems to think. When you dont look it, people still expect you to be able to do things, that frankly, your body wont let you anymore. Its probably 5x worse not to look it because i feel like because of that my body gets beat to death even more to compensate. I am now 30 wks pregnant, and i still have customers tell me i look more like 12-16 wks. I guess I am very frustrated with my lack of efficency, and effort, i feel like a total bum. My house is always messy, i cant ever get the laundry done, the dishes make me sick to do, and i just cant do it all and work anymore, and its making me crazy. I should probably just get used to it, considering once the baby gets here, its still gonna be like this. What can I say? Once a perfectionist, always a perfectionist.

Top Ten things I've wanted to eat while being pregnant

Everyone always made it seem like you would get these uncontrollable cravings that just make you crazy while pregnant. I have not gotten any of these, my "cravings", if you can call them that, are more like, hmm, that sounds good. and then like 75% of the time i cant find exactly what i was wanting, so i go without or find something similar...here are the ten thing i want most.

1. Arbys Roast beef sandwiches. My favorite is still the french dip and swiss despite my throwing it up.

2. Subway. Anything from subway is delicious, but turkey and meatball are my favorites.

3. Salad. About once a week I want to eat salad, sadly when these hit we don't usually even have lettuce.

4. Salty Food. anything salty, this includes :chips, popcorn, beef jerky,pretzels, saltines...stuff like that.

5. Pizza. it was good before, now its Heavenly.

6. Cheese. Especially frozen cheese, or anything with cheese in it or on it.

7. Ice cream. This week i have officially polished off one thing of dreyers peppermint ice cream, and about 3/4 of and off brand vanilla. alone. i ate all of it. haha.

8. Air head Sour Belts. if you haven't tried these, go find one, they're really good, but then again i could be crazy, i am pregnant after all.

9. Chik fil A. this one sucks because Idaho sucks and Chik Fil A doesnt exist up here. so i have yet to satisfy this craving.

10. Cafe Rio. another horrible one. Once again, no Cafe Rio in Idaho. but it always sounds sooooo good.

Of course i eat lots of other things, the weirdest one I want, but not all the time is milk. i hated milk before, but now its really good sometimes. being pregnant just makes me think about food a lot, i feel like an addict. im gonna go eat breakfast now.

Prego Perky

So, as most of you who read this probably already know(considering I only know of 2 people who do..) I'm PREGNANT! I thought it might be kinda fun to share how the last 3 months went down, considering we were hiding it until yesterday. It was kinda surreal at first, it still is in a way;even though I have now seen our little baby boy moving around and felt him moving around...i still cant believe it sometimes. PJ and I have known about this since July 22nd. We were in UT visiting my parents, and brought a pregnancy test (pee sticks, as we so lovingly dubbed them) with us because we had a hunch. The next day I went to go visit my sister, Heidi, who just had her baby girl. As I was holding her my mom said something like "Don't get any ideas"....um a bit late for that, but we didnt want to tell anyone yet. Our first appointment was August 17th. I though i was 8, maybe 10wks along at most. Dr. Bitters felt my stomach and announced "no, youre bigger than that, probably more like 12-13" I was shocked to say the least. My stomach was still relatively flat! I had morning sickness, sure, but 3 months already?? I was excited, scared, happy, worried, and didnt know what to think. The next month was a whirlwind of working 30 hours a week, losing my equilibrium,throwing up 75% of what i ate, bubble baths, and sleeping more than usual. I started to feel useless, very dependent on others. I couldnt lift heavy things at work, couldnt do the dishes without getting sick, or clean my house without having my legs turn to jello and my body wanting a nap. I had to change my mind set a bit, I admit, I still dont quite have it changed. I couldnt expect myself to be the same as I always had been, I felt fragile, and it was weird. On September 16th we had our second appointment, with a different doctor because Dr. Bitters was gone. She treated us like idiots, and didnt answer any of my questions. And, announced that I was 12-13 wks THIS month, I told her she was wrong, that they said that last month. She then said "well, youre small enough to be 12, but you could be big enough to be 16, we'll have to get an utrasound to be sure" Sooo we scheduled the ultrasound around our busy work schedules. They make you hold 32 oz of water so that your bladder is reallllly full, telling a pregnant woman to hold that much water is insane. Darcy got some measurements, and then let PJ and his dad in. She asked if i wanted to know what it was, and of course I did, when i was far enough to tell. She says " oh you can tell...want to know?" YES! "its a boy, thats not a third leg." The utrasound was...amazing to say the least, to see that little person moving around inside...knowing its yours...is something so incredible, so gratifying, I could have watched him all day. I am officially 17 wks pregnant and due March 9th! We still have noo idea what to name him, I dont want to name him the wrong thing and later go, ooops....so we're still working on that. There's a reason they call them miracles, he really truly is the most beautiful little miracle I've ever seen.