Monday, August 2, 2010

I HATE this.Absolutely HATE it.

I feel like lately all I do is complain on this blog. BUT.I think that whoever made up the let your baby "cry it out" needs to be shot. Its does not work. I've been doing it for a week now for naps, and its just making it worse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! First he cried for 15 minutes, and fell asleep for a while, second time he cried for 30 minutes and slept a shorter amount of time, third time he cried for 45 and slept for only 30 minutes, then cried for an hour and slept for about 20, then cried for and hour and a half and slept for like 15 minutes,It just got progressively worse up to this point.Then today he SCREAMED, thrashed, and choked for 2 HOURS and he DID NOT NAP. It's horrid, awful, terrible, worst thing I've ever experienced emotionally.By the end of the two hours I was crying as much, if not more than he was, and I felt like I was going to throw up. I HATE HATE HATE this. I now feel like the worst, most cold hearted parent in the universe.AND he now sleep WORSE than he EVER has. AH! I spend most of the night waking up and staring at the monitor pleading, begging that he wont wake up so he'll get enough sleep. And everything, and everyone is saying that it works, wellllll it doesnt for me and my baby. I guess I will keep trying, chances are I'll be absolutely crazy, in the psych ward by the end of this, but at least my baby will nap.HA. grrrrr. I'm in between hysterics and frustration, and being WAAAAAY stressed allll day long. I'm so screwed, I officially SUCK at this.


  1. Rach, I actually read this right when you posted it but have been finishing a paper all week. YOU ARE NOT A BAD MOM! I promise. I think (from what I have heard, obviously not from experience) that all moms go through this. I understand it is hard to hear him cry and that in turn it messes up his/your schedule, but YOU ARE NOT A BAD MOM! Just think, there are going to be trials in everything we do - you can do it! LOVE YOU!

  2. To be honest, I was blessed to have a good sleeper, but when he did cry at nights and i tried to just let him "cry it out" It broke. my. heart. It seriously kills me to hear my baby cry. I completely relate in that aspect. No worries girl, things always get better. They have to. Especially now that we are friends. See? things have gotten better already. ;)