Cant Sleep

So. It's 5:02 am here.and I am WIDE awake,like i could get up and start my day already. I never,EVER wake up this early.EVER. So why am I up? Well it could have something to do with the fact that I have had to pee every 45 minutes, like clock work. Or maybe its the cat purring in my EAR! Or it could be the little baby inside who, for some crazy reason decided to wake up and wiggle and kick allll over me. No matter the reason, I am very awake. And, this is the best part, you'll never guess where I'm blogging from. The Bathtub. And is it filled with water? Nope. It's lined with towels, and I'm laying down in it. I know what you're thinking, this is some crazy pregnant thing right?? Well, you'd be very wrong. I've done this for as long as I can remember, just not since I've been married. It would be hilarious if PJ woke up about now to find me blogging in the tub.Everytime I was scared when I was younger, I'd line the tub with towels and sleep in the tub, or next to it. Until I moved downstairs and there was a shower, then I would just sit by the shower door until i didnt feel weird anymore. I dont know why, but the funniest part is my Mom AND my older Sister do/did the same thing! We are just crazy I guess. So this is my failed attempt to sleep, going back to where i could always fall asleep. Old habits die hard I suppose. Not to mention the oh so convienient access to the toilet, which I am apparently stuck to tonight. Can this pregnancy thing please be over now?

Difficulties

I swear, all I blog about is my pregnancy now. For that I apologize, the fact is, i just don't have anything else really going on, and it kind of consumes your life. There are those women out there who really just loooove being pregnant. I am NOT one of them. Don't get me wrong, it's miraculous, and amazing when he moves around, I love knowing there's a baby in there. But, being pregnant tears your body apart, and I just dont understand how you could love that part. I am used to being very independent, and now i cant do a lot of things. I cant bend over normally anymore, cant lift heavy things, cant do more than a few chores without needing a nap...cant sneeze without having to pee, cant stand up for more than 2 hours without my feet swelling up, etc etc. I feel like the living dead half of the time, and i still work almost 30 hours a week. And, to top it all off, i still dont look as pregnant as i should. For those of you out there who have not been pregnant, this is NOT a blessing, despite what everyone seems to think. When you dont look it, people still expect you to be able to do things, that frankly, your body wont let you anymore. Its probably 5x worse not to look it because i feel like because of that my body gets beat to death even more to compensate. I am now 30 wks pregnant, and i still have customers tell me i look more like 12-16 wks. I guess I am very frustrated with my lack of efficency, and effort, i feel like a total bum. My house is always messy, i cant ever get the laundry done, the dishes make me sick to do, and i just cant do it all and work anymore, and its making me crazy. I should probably just get used to it, considering once the baby gets here, its still gonna be like this. What can I say? Once a perfectionist, always a perfectionist.

Top Ten things I've wanted to eat while being pregnant

Everyone always made it seem like you would get these uncontrollable cravings that just make you crazy while pregnant. I have not gotten any of these, my "cravings", if you can call them that, are more like, hmm, that sounds good. and then like 75% of the time i cant find exactly what i was wanting, so i go without or find something similar...here are the ten thing i want most.

1. Arbys Roast beef sandwiches. My favorite is still the french dip and swiss despite my throwing it up.

2. Subway. Anything from subway is delicious, but turkey and meatball are my favorites.

3. Salad. About once a week I want to eat salad, sadly when these hit we don't usually even have lettuce.

4. Salty Food. anything salty, this includes :chips, popcorn, beef jerky,pretzels, saltines...stuff like that.

5. Pizza. it was good before, now its Heavenly.

6. Cheese. Especially frozen cheese, or anything with cheese in it or on it.

7. Ice cream. This week i have officially polished off one thing of dreyers peppermint ice cream, and about 3/4 of and off brand vanilla. alone. i ate all of it. haha.

8. Air head Sour Belts. if you haven't tried these, go find one, they're really good, but then again i could be crazy, i am pregnant after all.

9. Chik fil A. this one sucks because Idaho sucks and Chik Fil A doesnt exist up here. so i have yet to satisfy this craving.

10. Cafe Rio. another horrible one. Once again, no Cafe Rio in Idaho. but it always sounds sooooo good.

Of course i eat lots of other things, the weirdest one I want, but not all the time is milk. i hated milk before, but now its really good sometimes. being pregnant just makes me think about food a lot, i feel like an addict. im gonna go eat breakfast now.

Prego Perky

So, as most of you who read this probably already know(considering I only know of 2 people who do..) I'm PREGNANT! I thought it might be kinda fun to share how the last 3 months went down, considering we were hiding it until yesterday. It was kinda surreal at first, it still is in a way;even though I have now seen our little baby boy moving around and felt him moving around...i still cant believe it sometimes. PJ and I have known about this since July 22nd. We were in UT visiting my parents, and brought a pregnancy test (pee sticks, as we so lovingly dubbed them) with us because we had a hunch. The next day I went to go visit my sister, Heidi, who just had her baby girl. As I was holding her my mom said something like "Don't get any ideas"....um a bit late for that, but we didnt want to tell anyone yet. Our first appointment was August 17th. I though i was 8, maybe 10wks along at most. Dr. Bitters felt my stomach and announced "no, youre bigger than that, probably more like 12-13" I was shocked to say the least. My stomach was still relatively flat! I had morning sickness, sure, but 3 months already?? I was excited, scared, happy, worried, and didnt know what to think. The next month was a whirlwind of working 30 hours a week, losing my equilibrium,throwing up 75% of what i ate, bubble baths, and sleeping more than usual. I started to feel useless, very dependent on others. I couldnt lift heavy things at work, couldnt do the dishes without getting sick, or clean my house without having my legs turn to jello and my body wanting a nap. I had to change my mind set a bit, I admit, I still dont quite have it changed. I couldnt expect myself to be the same as I always had been, I felt fragile, and it was weird. On September 16th we had our second appointment, with a different doctor because Dr. Bitters was gone. She treated us like idiots, and didnt answer any of my questions. And, announced that I was 12-13 wks THIS month, I told her she was wrong, that they said that last month. She then said "well, youre small enough to be 12, but you could be big enough to be 16, we'll have to get an utrasound to be sure" Sooo we scheduled the ultrasound around our busy work schedules. They make you hold 32 oz of water so that your bladder is reallllly full, telling a pregnant woman to hold that much water is insane. Darcy got some measurements, and then let PJ and his dad in. She asked if i wanted to know what it was, and of course I did, when i was far enough to tell. She says " oh you can tell...want to know?" YES! "its a boy, thats not a third leg." The utrasound was...amazing to say the least, to see that little person moving around inside...knowing its yours...is something so incredible, so gratifying, I could have watched him all day. I am officially 17 wks pregnant and due March 9th! We still have noo idea what to name him, I dont want to name him the wrong thing and later go, ooops....so we're still working on that. There's a reason they call them miracles, he really truly is the most beautiful little miracle I've ever seen.

Chick Flicks

Today I watched the movie "Ever After" and realized, chick flicks are not the same as they used to be. Before I got married watched them alone, or with one to a few of my good friends. Now I usually just watch them alone on my days off. The weirdest part is how I think about them now though. Watching them with my friends we would always talk about how we wanted a quality from one of the princes, or amazing characters the writers came up with. We would say how we wanted the way he looked, the way he was so smart, how he was so kind, the way he sang, or played guitar...etc etc...taking pieces of them to create in our minds our "ideal guy", our "prince charming" And now, I watch them alone most days, with completely different thoughts. I find myself thinking "haha, i have that, and that, and that." It's odd how after all those years of compiling a perfect man from movies and books, that I no longer watch and want what the girl in the movie has. Who I have is so insanely perfect for me, there's no fantasy I can find that's better. And... occasionally he'll watch them with me too...Life is good.

The Treasure Valley and Their Love for Boise State

Boise State's football team was about as popular as Duke University's (Duke doesnt win games. ever.) before the 2007 Fiesta Bowl. That year, BSU was undefeated, but a small-town, low-class, no-name enough school to not get a playoff with the no. 1 team in the nation or anything like that. they beat the Sooners in their Bowl game, everyone was shocked, amazed, happy, woo. The next year - last year - Boise State finished their season 12-1. they werent undefeated like the year before, but still, that's pretty good. that's one team with talented players who all play well together.

But as the first game of BSU's 2009 season approaches, against a well-ranked Oregon Ducks... Boise is going psycho. I counted in the car. 3 radio stations: 100.3, 101.1, 103.3 - for every commercial break, there's about 7 to ten commercials. for every commercial break, there's at least one BSU/DUCKS ad about "winning tickets," "it's duck season," or some other pathetic attempt to publicize and capitalize on their sudden burst of talent, and at least one more ad about "catching bsu fever" in general. that's a fifth of the commercial airtime (not to mention the dj's talking about it over and over and over and over) committed to Boise's biggest "hit" since potatoes or the worlds first chair-lift ever. woo.

But I dont care. I dont get the hype (well, kinda, but this is way too much.) Let me explain. I grew up in North Carolina. The heart of high school and college sports. as for college ball, I lived in the center of Duke, UNC, NC State, Wake Forest. even Appalachian State wasnt too far and they've made the news recently too. But for all these sports teams surrounding me, I knew it was game DAY when car flags were up and shirts were worn, and less people came to Chick Fil A because they were all out at the game... there was no game WEEK. No radio announcemnets or stupid tv commercials were the mosquitoes have some teams' colors for blood... The NCAA basketball tournament was played in my highschool in every locker bay and all around the commons area. And (as usually occured) Duke or UNC would make the Final Four, and ONLY THEN would everyone would begin to sensationalize the radio and tv ads, give away tickets, and have raffles and parties and all this CRAP idaho is doing for BSU's FIRST game of the 2009 season...

But here is were all this BSU hype crap seems familiar to me. My high school foot ball team was TERRIBLE until my sophomore year. They got a great team together and had some luck, and made it pretty darn close to the playoffs. then my junior year they did make it, and lost. (but the other school had a rule you could come there just to play football, as long as you got a ride yourself. so there were kids from all over the state that would go to Independence, just to play football. so it wasnt surprising we lost to them.) BUT... it didnt last. as everyone graduated, and moved on, the JV team took over the varsity team, and we went 1-11. the only win was due to a forfeit...

So BSU won a bowl. they went undefeated. they had a great team. whoopdy-freakin-do. I understand enjoying it while it lasts, and good for them if they win and can keep winning. But seriously, all you BSU fans are in for a HUGE "i told you so" when they start to suck again. not if, but when. and I'm guessing within three years. So I may be sick to death of your ads and your hype and your shirts and colors and even wal-mart hanging up squeaky-dog-toy ducks on a BSU-themed display... But now that I've complained, I'll sit back and swallow my words for now. We'll see how game ONE, and the rest of the 2009 season pans out...

but i'll still be sitting on my 'i told you so.' just waiting for the day I can listen to the radio and watch TV.















or i'll just move somewhere else and leave you guys to your Bronco Nation bs.

Closed Captions are funny

So, I was watching TV today with subtitles on... i saw a few typos

"somebodyce" - somebody's
"hoo-rah" - the marine yell, oorah.
"evaculation" - evacuation
"absoultly" - absolutely
"swhoosh" - it put that up every time the display on 24.7 news channel changed. they subtitle every little sound. they even subtitle the timer for when the audio and stuff should be played.  (which is probably the worst news reporting i've ever seen)

Maybe i'll post about that later: Idaho's really crappy local news and 24/hr newschannel reporting.