I HATE this.Absolutely HATE it.

I feel like lately all I do is complain on this blog. BUT.I think that whoever made up the let your baby "cry it out" needs to be shot. Its does not work. I've been doing it for a week now for naps, and its just making it worse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! First he cried for 15 minutes, and fell asleep for a while, second time he cried for 30 minutes and slept a shorter amount of time, third time he cried for 45 and slept for only 30 minutes, then cried for an hour and slept for about 20, then cried for and hour and a half and slept for like 15 minutes,It just got progressively worse up to this point.Then today he SCREAMED, thrashed, and choked for 2 HOURS and he DID NOT NAP. It's horrid, awful, terrible, worst thing I've ever experienced emotionally.By the end of the two hours I was crying as much, if not more than he was, and I felt like I was going to throw up. I HATE HATE HATE this. I now feel like the worst, most cold hearted parent in the universe.AND he now sleep WORSE than he EVER has. AH! I spend most of the night waking up and staring at the monitor pleading, begging that he wont wake up so he'll get enough sleep. And everything, and everyone is saying that it works, wellllll it doesnt for me and my baby. I guess I will keep trying, chances are I'll be absolutely crazy, in the psych ward by the end of this, but at least my baby will nap.HA. grrrrr. I'm in between hysterics and frustration, and being WAAAAAY stressed allll day long. I'm so screwed, I officially SUCK at this.

Just because your baby...

reacts a certain way to something, does not mean mine will react the same way. Having a baby means that everywhere you go, someone, everyone, wants to give me advice, and tell me what to do. It's nice when I ask for help, I've finally learned to do that. But if I dont need it, it's the most annoying thing in the world. Kaleb was crying and this lady says "oh, he sounds hungry, you should feed him, it will make him calm down." Umm NO. I just got down feeding him for the last hour,if I give him anymore he'll throw up. But i didn't say that. But the "advice" is given out no matter where I go. I hear, "you should change him.", "youre using the wrong kind of bottle nipple.", "He's hungry", "You should hold him" "My baby used to do...(insert action) and it worked to do..(insert the solution).". On and on and on...its fine when PJ or his sister give me advice, but when its someone who doesn't know me, and doesn't know my baby...Its completely different. And it makes me unescessarily angry, doesn't really help that I have raging hormones,and am running on very little sleep.

Blah blah blah....

There's this song. and I have no idea why I like it. It's called Blah Blah Blah by Kesha, its annoying...and I cant figure out why I like it. Tik Tok is fairly annoying as well. Istill love listening to it.Why why why??

New...Title Thingy...

Sooo, i decided I wanted to re-name my blog to something that makes a little more sense.Life Unexpected just made sense. Mostly because my life is just that, EXTREMELY unexpected.My senior year my friends were betting when I would get married, i had somewhere between 2 months and a year after going to college according to that. But I didnt think I'd be married for a long time. In fact if I wasn't married by 26 I gonna move to Italy and buy a villa. And then i went to BYU-I and on the first day of classes I met PJ. By my 19th birthday I was engaged. Married January 3rd 2009, and in July i found out i was pregnant. One unexpected thing after another. And now being a mom, every single day is new and unexpecting, So this is still the same blog, just a more fitting title.

Bakerella

There is this website bakerella.com and I am officially obsessed. If i had unlimited baking supplies and free time I would probably bake all day long(and weigh 400 lbs, but heyyy, oh well. haha). I've made the cake pops a couple times now, and honestly the first attempt wasnt horrible, but the next time was better. Cake pops are crumbled cake mixed with frosting,rolled into balls and dipped in chocolate.These were the first(below) we made them for easter,hence the lil chick faces and body.And they're delicious.

I find myself clicking all the links to things she used to make the different confections and adding them to my amazon account and putting as save for later. Because seriously, when you have a 2 month old baby, you cant afford time or money to waste on baking supplies. But there are the sprinkles,candy molds,baking cups, squeezie bottles,fondant, edible markers,cute gift boxes and the list goes on and on. I'm planning Birthday presents for my sister( cheescake balls) and my niece( a really cool fondant mini cake) and making chocolates/desserts for the holidays in the eminent future for the rest of forever. I want to try it all, and be really good at it, I'd say I'm passionate about baking now. Its a strange passion, one of which requires time I do not usually have. One day...maybe...my passions are set aside for the time being though and I dont usually bake when i want to, mostly because I dont have the supplies. Until I find the time to be selfish I indulge in Bakerella,plotting to one day make it all.

He's Finally Here!

It's been almost 2 weeks, i figured it was time to announce the new member of our little family up here now. Kaleb Jethro Nay was born on March 2 at 1:34 pm. He weighed 6 lbs 9 oz and was 19.5 inches long. He's absolutely perfect, and a very happy calm little boy. It's so fun to have him here with us. There really is nothing like waking up to your own baby, even though you dont sleep much, its still amazing. i wouldnt trade my life for anything.

10 Days!

As the end draws closer, I'm anxious, exicted, and really just want this baby out! And 10 days is a nice even number, soo, blog time. I realize that once I have our little baby, life will by no means be easier, but I am really looking forward to having my body back. This is why:
-No more peeing every hour like clock work at night.
-No more not being able to shave my legs right, its reallly difficult to shave when you cant see what youre doing.
-I can bend over again!
-No more worrying about if anything I'm doing will hurt the baby
-No more getting sick from eating too much, or too fast.
-No more bowling ball belly
-I get to wear my wedding rings again!
-I can sleep on my stomach
I could go on, but you get the point. I'm excited, I wish things would go faster. I wonder if I'll even be able to tell when I'm going into labor. And i just hope its sooner rather than later, if he decided to get here this week, I would be completely ok with that. And so would PJ, he's dying to meet this little guy.